Admitting a Problem

If the girl who struggled to sing the National Anthem last week can have the courage to admit a problem, I can too. This is not substance abuse for me but instead anger. It can destroy everything at a moment's notice and more times than not beyond repair. I can't fix what I've destroyed but took the first step today to eliminate the anger from my life. Pretty intense therapy starting tomorrow at 9 a.m. thru 3 p.m. and could last a week or even more. Out of courtesy for me, I'd ask that you refrain from commenting. I'm ashamed to admit this problem but I think doing so publicly is a step in the right direction.




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